... Because I'm his sunflower :)

Anthony bought me sunflowers the other day, they were just beautiful..

Changed...

I spoke to a friend from high school.. A friend from back in the days. Days I've long forgotten. After talking to her, I've come to realize in a much deeper way what Jesus saved me from. This girl and me used to be best friends, we would talk about everything and now I could see we are on two totally different paths. She is where I was 7 years ago and I am where I am because of the grace of God. As I listened to her talk the Lord showed me what he brought me out of- a life of selfishness, lust and emptiness. The craziest part of the conversation was that she kept saying, I can't believe you married a Christian guy! I kept thinking to myself, I thought I was Christian when we were friends, why is this such a surprise, but my life did not reflect Christ in any way. My heart was far from God, the things of God were a bore to me, I hated God, I loved myself, I hated people and thought that was ok, I cared only for my own happiness and all the while I would get more and more depressed seeking satisfaction in everything but Him. It was only the wonderful grace of God that gradually opened my eyes to see my sick soul and softened my heart to receive the beauty of the gospel. It changed me totally.. I am just still amazed by my conversation because I thought I knew what he saved me from, but today- today it's real to me... he truly saved me from the pit and out of the miry clay i threw myself in, without him reaching out and pursuing me, i would have never sought him... My heart was opposed to God, even though I was raised in a Christian family, I knew the right things and tried to do them (whenever I felt like it), but it was all fake- Jesus chose to save me!! 

 

Amazing love how can it be that my God would die for me!